Head Games

 It's raining in my head today

and in our bed you seem so far away

and I always fucking regret the things 

                                I say 

                                and do.

I'm a disaster through and through

and anytime I try to improve

                                I make a mess

                                mediocre at best.

And the ashes fall

and I forget it all

I forget the rest

and I remember 

                                you.

So tall with never-ending arms

and a perforating smile

and in that moment I set back the dial

                            but I can't erase what I did

                            can't take back the words I said.

We fight 10,000 wars a week

but always stop before someone's dead

our paranoia and rage crawl back in our heads.

And it's suddenly so silent and all you hear 

a slowly falling tear 

we were so violent

and now we've made it through the aftermath

trying to get back to where we were

one hour before

two lovers laughing 

and rolling on the floor

intertwined

heart,

body,

and mind. 

and in this silence we both understand 

with a soft glance 

that we're us again.

A crazy lady and her crazy man.